on tuesday, i read a post by bj moore at shrinking the camel, called you can’t compete with grace. it hit me like a brick wall, which is just what i needed actually. i was having a hard time letting go of something. and this “letting go” was driving me off the deep end. i knew i would have to deal with the feelings somehow, because , like bradly wrote “the cognitive dissonance was killing me.”the fight was between what i wanted, even felt i needed, and what i knew was right and aligned with my beliefs. and within, it was truly killing me.
then i read these lines in the post…
“How can anyone compete with Grace?”
“For me, when you break it all down, Grace means simply this: I am going to be okay.”
“Why surrender to God’s infinite Love when I can just as easily go down a stink-hole of obsessive insecurity all by myself?”
“…one thing I do know: don’t ever try to compete with grace, because it could eat you for lunch, if it wanted to.”
after reading the whole article i realized that i was trying to compete with the Grace of God. i was trying with all my might to let this go on my own, and it kept coming back on me…over and over again. i wasn’t letting God’s Grace do it’s work.
by thinking of God’s Grace and Love, i was able to say “i’m going to be okay.”
it was like a life line in my hand, as i was sinking in a dark restless sea.
by the Grace of God, i am going to be okay.
that is what God’s Grace allows us to say.
you can hold on to that.