i want
to get it over with
not to an end
but an over and
over and 
over
with

there have been people
sharing part of themselves
their listening
their words
kindnesses
that i know
kept me
alive
surviving the rejection
of others
and the coldness of my own heart

i am back in this place
the only place to write
my thoughts
close at heart
frame of mind
meat and potatoes
crux of the matter
whatever
come here
if you
want
me