. . . beauty i have always wanted a body to adorn me i think that will bring to me love and acceptance even my own though i never thought i had beauty i still desire i compare my body and labels and trivialities my body is in the process of decay now beyond denial i detect life within and perhaps a Love resides there some kind of beauty grows there God is taking away dead layers allowing new birth within my soul is His His garden i know the layers will go . . . .